Thank You

i spoke a lot to God today.
so much in a long while,
I guess I have been depending more on my own strength than i should, recently.
I havent been the best I should,
nor have i tried hard enough.
sunday's sermon on compassion convicted me.
"sarah, You havent been loving your friends, family, strangers, the ugly and unlovable, your adversaries, as sincerely and as purely as you should"
it was quite difficult to come before the Holy One with a whole baggage of sinful confessions.
perhaps, it was pride-the root of all evil.
so hard to embrace the fact that we have fallen short of the glory, and always, even in the smallest ways, harbour selfish ambition and un-loving motives,
but its true.
i have.
the bible says,
"God opposes the proud, but gives grace to the humble."- james 4:6
I pray He will continue to change my heart, its attitudes, as I offer up my life.
I pray he will grant me wisdom, strength and determination to complete this journey.

In actual fact, I was really comforted to be able to tell Him everything.
He's closer to my heart than any physical friend is and can be.
he understands everything, better than i can understand myself.
He accepts my shortcomings, and all idiosyncracies any other human cannot possibly bear.
He always forgives me for all ive screwed up in life.
He offers me 2nd chances after major mistakes ive made.
He has the best plans for me.
more importantly, his love demonstrated the ultimate of sacrifice.
His love is deeper and far more powerful, far more breath-taking than that any man can offer.
and this itself is one of the greatest comfort i have, one of the greatest pride in my life, something i can truly boast about with confidence.
He is my knight in shining armour.
Ive found The One,
have you?