So Jean is Back

My life is full of surprises.
sometimes, I wish it would be less. each time i get "surprised", i feel my blood pressure rise a little, my heart beating faster, my bowels rising to my mouth, and my mind just trying to keep u with it all. grr.

first, it was church in the morning. vineyard's worship was Excellent.also, the sermon just spoke through my deeper thoughts, provoked me. was challenged. lunch.. defended someone out of my own accord. and stupidly got poked with a knife by michelle. lokking back,i really cant figure out why i responded the way i did. it was like a reflex. is it worth it, really?sometimes, i feel so stupid thinking the way i do. or is this just me and my pride?

chinese church was alright.
had a good time praying with the dance min girls and guy. haha.
good chat with alithea, once again i felt encouraged to make time for people whom i think God wants me to care for.
heard a weird or sacrastic? comment from someone, which surprisngly didnt piss me off, but just caused me to wonder what the truth really is.

came home, i have to face one of my fears and challenges of the week? month? months?
suddenly, knock knock. in came My china boy. He said he's bored and just wanted to say hi cause he hasnt seen me in ages. i havent spoken to him in 2/3 months. and ts just funny when he comes knowing on the door. sigh.

i dont like surprises. not these kinds...
im having pre-monday blues. i dislike 9-11 monday PBLs.i just want to sleep away...