Hold my hand and walk with me
You're the Light that makes me see
On this path my soul You lead
O my Shepherd walk with me
I need You more then breath
You're my hope in You I live
Angels worship at Your throne
Power and Glory to You alone
My Saviour
Glorious one
My Redeemer
Living in my heart
Now and forever
Your Kingdom come
Jesus Son of God
Jesus Son of God
Jesus,O Jesus
Holy is The Lamb of God
Jesus,O Jesus
Worth is The Lamb of God
Friday, October 28, 2005
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
on trial
its the 2nd consecutive day im staying in the SL after ten.
why? because im on a studying streak this week-huge PBLs on immunology and a coursework to submit next thursday. and, i cant seem to study in my room. facing the four walls makes my mind wander and wander... the impending doom of loneliness.
im going to stay late tomorrow too, want to finish PBL 8 before the weekend. i cant wait for next week, because it will be the end of Block 1! yeay!
dun think im a horrid mugger k. i work hard, and play hard. just that its nearing end of block, so lotsa learning to do. i think ill go to town this weekend, kinda retail therapy? hah. might go for nottingham games in 2 weeks time.. and in another 3 weeks, GRACE camp!im really looking forward to my first church camp overseas.
oh its halloween next monday and people are going mad! haha. i might go for some party and look at the costumes people are gonna have. well, i know rasti is gonna be a pirate and alfred.. swore he was going to turn up as a (cute) hamster. haha. hope e doesn read this.
other upcoming things include plans to start a dance ministry in YM, with kenneth-)how cool is that....but i shoudl give it more prayer.. and though and discussion with others. Kristy where are u? i need your help!heh.
right...
its a dark and lonely night in glasgow.and it will get worse. sigh.
the yr 3s are gonna have their ssm exams tml.should i or should i not call?
things are getting so difficult. i need strength and wisdom from God.
but do i really want it?
a really cute statement from a friens,"beh appy nds ileal ways"
i cant.
why? because im on a studying streak this week-huge PBLs on immunology and a coursework to submit next thursday. and, i cant seem to study in my room. facing the four walls makes my mind wander and wander... the impending doom of loneliness.
im going to stay late tomorrow too, want to finish PBL 8 before the weekend. i cant wait for next week, because it will be the end of Block 1! yeay!
dun think im a horrid mugger k. i work hard, and play hard. just that its nearing end of block, so lotsa learning to do. i think ill go to town this weekend, kinda retail therapy? hah. might go for nottingham games in 2 weeks time.. and in another 3 weeks, GRACE camp!im really looking forward to my first church camp overseas.
oh its halloween next monday and people are going mad! haha. i might go for some party and look at the costumes people are gonna have. well, i know rasti is gonna be a pirate and alfred.. swore he was going to turn up as a (cute) hamster. haha. hope e doesn read this.
other upcoming things include plans to start a dance ministry in YM, with kenneth-)how cool is that....but i shoudl give it more prayer.. and though and discussion with others. Kristy where are u? i need your help!heh.
right...
its a dark and lonely night in glasgow.and it will get worse. sigh.
the yr 3s are gonna have their ssm exams tml.should i or should i not call?
things are getting so difficult. i need strength and wisdom from God.
but do i really want it?
a really cute statement from a friens,"beh appy nds ileal ways"
i cant.
Monday, October 17, 2005
Deja Vu
a little lesson learnt today- Never overestimate my time management abilities.
I'm a stubborn person who always likes to squeeze my appointments and plans into a tight schedule, leaving hardly room for hiccups or delays. Today i had FRS from 9-12. PBL was set at 3.was supposed to go to the gym in between lessons, BUT i decided that i could go to the bank before going to the gym, and after the gym i REALISED i had to go to the Study Lanscape to print my PBL notes.at 210, i finished my work out. by the time i bathed, it was 240. ran to school-245. 15 min to print my notes, that was okay. However, so unfortunately, alfred's thumb drive was too big to fit into the pathetic USB port that was behind the com. i had to crawl underneath the desk to find the port, but still failed to print my notes. in the end, i sat through "feedback" with no notes and contributed everything from memory.
good because it was a test of my understanding.
bad because i'm a perfectionist and not having my neat computer typed notes in front of me and failure to fulfil my schedule=sub-standard. Im not happy:(
im in the learning mood. feel like reading non-stop and putting on my thinking cap to understand everything. however,i think im partly suffering from "kiasu-ism", im paranoid that i dunno enough!!! what a shame...
besides that, the weekend was great. cell group was good! everybody loved my lemon butter cake!-thank yew hannah for ur help-*bows* Im gonna make some for my mommy when i return for christmas! she'll be so happy!
the stay over at jean's place was tiring but fun.. we talked till 4am! and woke up at 12 on saturday. headed down to town, and my.. shopping here is SOOOOOOoooo fabulous!!!! the ZARA is 4 storeys big and so is topshop. zara has taken over mango as my favourite, cause it's just so good. so many nicer clothes and the variety is huge.. and Frasers is just awesome.. a mini Harrods, but less high-end. everything is so pretty! but of course.. expensive. i shall not get hooked onto the shopping bug. it's an evil bug. daddy will be so disappointed in me.. -shall wait for the boxing day sale-
school's fine.. still on blood related stuff. wanna start this week well, doing good work and meeting my schedules. and none the less, give God the best part of my day. and when sunday comes again, I'll be a happy girl at Church:)packed weekend, with Rasti's (my roommate) birthday, year 1 potluck and church.. hmm so i gotta work hard for the next few days.
was a bit sad this evening.cause im starting to cough badly, like a TB patient. -hope its not the winter flu- and i was so tired too. You know how it is like when its cold and grey and ure walking home alone. the thought of having to cook despite all ur fatigue made me feel like a sad person. its such a chore to do so, yet you must. cause your food will expire and it will all go to waste. and its like throwing money into the drain too. so i felt quite sad.. i wished then if someone could do all these for me-cooking and laundry and groceries.. but i guess, this is life now. i think it was more of self-pity then. well,at least, my smoked salmon pasta tasted good, so no regrets! Thank You God.
I'm a stubborn person who always likes to squeeze my appointments and plans into a tight schedule, leaving hardly room for hiccups or delays. Today i had FRS from 9-12. PBL was set at 3.was supposed to go to the gym in between lessons, BUT i decided that i could go to the bank before going to the gym, and after the gym i REALISED i had to go to the Study Lanscape to print my PBL notes.at 210, i finished my work out. by the time i bathed, it was 240. ran to school-245. 15 min to print my notes, that was okay. However, so unfortunately, alfred's thumb drive was too big to fit into the pathetic USB port that was behind the com. i had to crawl underneath the desk to find the port, but still failed to print my notes. in the end, i sat through "feedback" with no notes and contributed everything from memory.
good because it was a test of my understanding.
bad because i'm a perfectionist and not having my neat computer typed notes in front of me and failure to fulfil my schedule=sub-standard. Im not happy:(
im in the learning mood. feel like reading non-stop and putting on my thinking cap to understand everything. however,i think im partly suffering from "kiasu-ism", im paranoid that i dunno enough!!! what a shame...
besides that, the weekend was great. cell group was good! everybody loved my lemon butter cake!-thank yew hannah for ur help-*bows* Im gonna make some for my mommy when i return for christmas! she'll be so happy!
the stay over at jean's place was tiring but fun.. we talked till 4am! and woke up at 12 on saturday. headed down to town, and my.. shopping here is SOOOOOOoooo fabulous!!!! the ZARA is 4 storeys big and so is topshop. zara has taken over mango as my favourite, cause it's just so good. so many nicer clothes and the variety is huge.. and Frasers is just awesome.. a mini Harrods, but less high-end. everything is so pretty! but of course.. expensive. i shall not get hooked onto the shopping bug. it's an evil bug. daddy will be so disappointed in me.. -shall wait for the boxing day sale-
school's fine.. still on blood related stuff. wanna start this week well, doing good work and meeting my schedules. and none the less, give God the best part of my day. and when sunday comes again, I'll be a happy girl at Church:)packed weekend, with Rasti's (my roommate) birthday, year 1 potluck and church.. hmm so i gotta work hard for the next few days.
was a bit sad this evening.cause im starting to cough badly, like a TB patient. -hope its not the winter flu- and i was so tired too. You know how it is like when its cold and grey and ure walking home alone. the thought of having to cook despite all ur fatigue made me feel like a sad person. its such a chore to do so, yet you must. cause your food will expire and it will all go to waste. and its like throwing money into the drain too. so i felt quite sad.. i wished then if someone could do all these for me-cooking and laundry and groceries.. but i guess, this is life now. i think it was more of self-pity then. well,at least, my smoked salmon pasta tasted good, so no regrets! Thank You God.
Thursday, October 13, 2005
1st Signs
We had our biggest gathering of the new school term on Wednesday at Kenneth's place (a flat rented by 4 of them including Ting, chris and Baldwin). The seniors from malaysia and singapore cooked for the juniors and first years (including IMU yr 3 students), it was so goooood...=)the seniors can cook so well! about 35 of us squeezed at the flat, and the night was real cold. but we had great fun just getting to know one another better, and also get to know new faces. haha. there are just too many malaysians and singaporeans around.. even more! in church,but who weren here. i will take more photos next time to show people back home in singapore, who i usually hang out with.
I did suturing yesterday at the Royal! too bad.. i couldn take any photos of my sutures on pig trotters and fake skin... =(im being the typical excited year one who's so happy about every single thing. heh, i hope i will get to do it again, soon. oh yeah, poor niece fainted while we were having our mini CSI lecture at the Royal.. too tired etc. "shock"-PBL 4, i should go read up on it , real soon, after i finish blogging.
was feeling a little stupid after todays PBL. plus when alfred was giving us a little test.. on warfarin, i happily said "i know! it inhibits thromboxane A2 bla bla... "wrong! its supposed to be a vitamin k antagonist! ahhh... so silly, me. but never mind.. think i have too high expectations of myself, sometimes. ommenah has a theory, "we should know something about everything, and not everything about something." i quite agree. first it would be easier to pass the exams, secondly, you cant possibly remember everything about the human body!
anyways, ambika, ommenah and i have decided to make thursday a PBL re-cap day, where we will gather in ommena's room to revise all we've learnt for that week or earlier, with ommena recapping what she had learnt 2 years ago, and adding value to ours. haha. we tried blood pressure regulation and clotting today. it was GOOD! i managed quite well! yeay!!
ok thats enough blogging for tonight. Tomorrows a real slack day 1-2pm lecture, other than that im free to comlete PBL, and bake a lemon butter cake! and then there's cell at night=)
daddy and mummy just called. i was a bit grumpy at first, i dunno why. i really dunno why. but when they had to put down the phone to go to work, i felt so so so sad.. i almost cried! i miss my daddy and mummy so much! *sobs*
never mind, december is coming! and i have coursework on "heirachy of systems" and "hemophilia" to complete. It's a BIG coursework, which means i will be busy, which means i wun have time to think abt home, that much.
till i get more nice photos and happening things happen, God Bless.
I did suturing yesterday at the Royal! too bad.. i couldn take any photos of my sutures on pig trotters and fake skin... =(im being the typical excited year one who's so happy about every single thing. heh, i hope i will get to do it again, soon. oh yeah, poor niece fainted while we were having our mini CSI lecture at the Royal.. too tired etc. "shock"-PBL 4, i should go read up on it , real soon, after i finish blogging.
was feeling a little stupid after todays PBL. plus when alfred was giving us a little test.. on warfarin, i happily said "i know! it inhibits thromboxane A2 bla bla... "wrong! its supposed to be a vitamin k antagonist! ahhh... so silly, me. but never mind.. think i have too high expectations of myself, sometimes. ommenah has a theory, "we should know something about everything, and not everything about something." i quite agree. first it would be easier to pass the exams, secondly, you cant possibly remember everything about the human body!
anyways, ambika, ommenah and i have decided to make thursday a PBL re-cap day, where we will gather in ommena's room to revise all we've learnt for that week or earlier, with ommena recapping what she had learnt 2 years ago, and adding value to ours. haha. we tried blood pressure regulation and clotting today. it was GOOD! i managed quite well! yeay!!
ok thats enough blogging for tonight. Tomorrows a real slack day 1-2pm lecture, other than that im free to comlete PBL, and bake a lemon butter cake! and then there's cell at night=)
daddy and mummy just called. i was a bit grumpy at first, i dunno why. i really dunno why. but when they had to put down the phone to go to work, i felt so so so sad.. i almost cried! i miss my daddy and mummy so much! *sobs*
never mind, december is coming! and i have coursework on "heirachy of systems" and "hemophilia" to complete. It's a BIG coursework, which means i will be busy, which means i wun have time to think abt home, that much.
till i get more nice photos and happening things happen, God Bless.
the entire first yr (in glasgow, including IMU yr 3 students): (from top L to R) Niece yr 1indon medic, wasim sri lankan yr 1 medic, jonathan yr 1 mynmar medic, ME, jean, shirley yr 3 IMU indon, maria yr 1 malaysian medic, sean yr 1 malaysian medic, (erm forgot his name!) yr 3 IMU, michelle kui yr 1 malaysian medic, ambika, poyi yr 1 singapore/HK medic
some of the lovely seniors: (from left) Michelle yr 2 singaporean medic, carol yr 3 singaporean medic rgs rj, jing yr 2 singaporean architect, ting, yr 2 medic of complicated background, born in glasgow but is taiwanese, studied in japan for a while and is back in glasgow, phuiyee yr 2 malaysian medic, yinru yr 2 singaporean medic ex-BMC! (michelle phuiyee and yinru stay in mich's dad's flat..really cool place that looks like IKEA showroom)
Monday, October 10, 2005
Give faith a fighting chance
I saw Lea watching "fame" on her notebook. I miss the dance floor so much, so much. my feet seems so incomplete without soft shoes, without feeling the parquet floorings. aye. God if it be your will, please open the door for me to dance once again, even dance for your glory.
anyway, i really detest first impressions. they are deceiving, far too deceiving, even malicious. argh.
PBL on clotting. i want to go study, sleep and wake up fresh for tml.long lond day ahead!
anyway, i really detest first impressions. they are deceiving, far too deceiving, even malicious. argh.
PBL on clotting. i want to go study, sleep and wake up fresh for tml.long lond day ahead!
Saturday, October 08, 2005
the Need
the first week of official school has gone by and i feel as if i've been in school for at least 3 weeks! Ive had 2 PBLs-first on skin and repair, the other on blood pressure and stitching. quite interesting, but i realised that theres so much to learn from the books, so much self studying.. and one can over learn-knowing too much detail. tortora is good, ganong is crazy.. is there something in between???
yup, aniways, ive been hardworking, staying in the SL-Study Landscape (newly coined refined term for library) to prepare for PBLs. Ive been playing too, so yes, balance! -i wonder how long more can i keep up with this-
last night, ommenah (yr 3 singaporean medic), Rebecca (her ex roommate), ambika, maria sophia( greek gooddess) and i celebrated Hannah's birthday with her! we're all good friends and ommenah and hannah stay opposite me, really nice and happy people. after a horrific sing soc AGM (im now the events coordinator, at least not the pres.phew.), ambika, ommenah and i went to rebecca's place for some realy good carrot cake. (mummy's still the best though!)then we journeyed to Queen Margaret Union for "Cheesy Pop"
my first time clubbing. hah. wells.. it wasn a very pleasant experience, so i dont think i will be going again. this is a sensitive issue, so i shant say much. we've all got our own views and i cant impose mine on others, but anyways what went on for me was that i didnt drink -i cant, u see. danced a bit witht he girls-hey! it wasnt wild at all.. but i was bored dancing. not the type that i enjoy.. i really miss performance dance, ballet and hih hop. i guess i just cant find any meaning at all, lest, any fulfilment dancing and screaming away in a sea of sardines. quite a freaky sight-the images will always be planted deep in my brain as an abstinence reminder.
secondly, well, my neighbour Mr China boy A, was hitting on me, again. and he did it a very matter of fact-ly. he asked for a dance, asked me if i've got a "BF", bought me a drink (orange juice!), asked me if he could be my boyfriend. i replied, "NO" period. horrifying. i have a low tolerance for guys like that...
nightmare was over at 330m went i fell asleep . began at 8am this mornign when i had to wake up for freshers gathering. we went to a market, IKEA and Loch Lomond. small crow, but it was not too bad. quite fun. but i was too tired... but i like IKEA though, i love all the show cases and i cant wait for next year to come when i can build my own house!!!
alright. thats enough for now, long day tml at church and PBL to complete..
tired and bothered. i need to pray. I need God.
-how funny it is when i always say i need God, especially when im troubled. how much better it would be if i could realise i do need Him every second and in every part of my life. humans are stubborn creatures. at least i cud say that of myself.-
yup, aniways, ive been hardworking, staying in the SL-Study Landscape (newly coined refined term for library) to prepare for PBLs. Ive been playing too, so yes, balance! -i wonder how long more can i keep up with this-
last night, ommenah (yr 3 singaporean medic), Rebecca (her ex roommate), ambika, maria sophia( greek gooddess) and i celebrated Hannah's birthday with her! we're all good friends and ommenah and hannah stay opposite me, really nice and happy people. after a horrific sing soc AGM (im now the events coordinator, at least not the pres.phew.), ambika, ommenah and i went to rebecca's place for some realy good carrot cake. (mummy's still the best though!)then we journeyed to Queen Margaret Union for "Cheesy Pop"
my first time clubbing. hah. wells.. it wasn a very pleasant experience, so i dont think i will be going again. this is a sensitive issue, so i shant say much. we've all got our own views and i cant impose mine on others, but anyways what went on for me was that i didnt drink -i cant, u see. danced a bit witht he girls-hey! it wasnt wild at all.. but i was bored dancing. not the type that i enjoy.. i really miss performance dance, ballet and hih hop. i guess i just cant find any meaning at all, lest, any fulfilment dancing and screaming away in a sea of sardines. quite a freaky sight-the images will always be planted deep in my brain as an abstinence reminder.
secondly, well, my neighbour Mr China boy A, was hitting on me, again. and he did it a very matter of fact-ly. he asked for a dance, asked me if i've got a "BF", bought me a drink (orange juice!), asked me if he could be my boyfriend. i replied, "NO" period. horrifying. i have a low tolerance for guys like that...
nightmare was over at 330m went i fell asleep . began at 8am this mornign when i had to wake up for freshers gathering. we went to a market, IKEA and Loch Lomond. small crow, but it was not too bad. quite fun. but i was too tired... but i like IKEA though, i love all the show cases and i cant wait for next year to come when i can build my own house!!!
alright. thats enough for now, long day tml at church and PBL to complete..
tired and bothered. i need to pray. I need God.
-how funny it is when i always say i need God, especially when im troubled. how much better it would be if i could realise i do need Him every second and in every part of my life. humans are stubborn creatures. at least i cud say that of myself.-
Sunday, October 02, 2005
light in my insanity
I am falling to my knees
I need you more today
My prayer is still the same
My heart is calling out your name
Sweet anointing fills this place
I am found in your embrace
Rain down on me
Rain down on me
here in you presence I am free
Pour out like rain, come touch me again
Lord let your presence fall on me
I am longing just to see
your power and your majesty
sweet anointing fill this place
I am found in your embrace
I need you more today
My prayer is still the same
My heart is calling out your name
Sweet anointing fills this place
I am found in your embrace
Rain down on me
Rain down on me
here in you presence I am free
Pour out like rain, come touch me again
Lord let your presence fall on me
I am longing just to see
your power and your majesty
sweet anointing fill this place
I am found in your embrace
Saturday, October 01, 2005
Bestie
Miss Pretty Princess Petrina Yong
This is my bestie. she's a perky princess who's extremely proud of her royalty. but i think, she's all deserving of it. i read her letters and album for the first time today, and it has since caused me an emotional upheaval. (nah, kidding!)but yes, I miss her a lot and am wondering if she's alright and happy in Singapore, If she's got someone else to talk to. I cant stop staring at the first page of the album which wrote:
"Memories is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose."
her very handwriting gives me a sense of nostalgia, yet it comforts me, reminding me that she has not forgotten me, and will not.
oh no! all the letters from home are flooding in suddenly.i miss my daddy and mummy. mummy cried over the phone that day when i spoke to her. so did aunty. and daddy keeps saying touching stuff like "I tell myself to work very hard everyday so I can take leave when you are back and spend more time with you." two weeks has gone by. I think Im finally home sick! oh no...I'm gonna break my 1st "no crying" resolution in Glasgow, soon!
This is my bestie. she's a perky princess who's extremely proud of her royalty. but i think, she's all deserving of it. i read her letters and album for the first time today, and it has since caused me an emotional upheaval. (nah, kidding!)but yes, I miss her a lot and am wondering if she's alright and happy in Singapore, If she's got someone else to talk to. I cant stop staring at the first page of the album which wrote:
"Memories is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose."
her very handwriting gives me a sense of nostalgia, yet it comforts me, reminding me that she has not forgotten me, and will not.
oh no! all the letters from home are flooding in suddenly.i miss my daddy and mummy. mummy cried over the phone that day when i spoke to her. so did aunty. and daddy keeps saying touching stuff like "I tell myself to work very hard everyday so I can take leave when you are back and spend more time with you." two weeks has gone by. I think Im finally home sick! oh no...I'm gonna break my 1st "no crying" resolution in Glasgow, soon!
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