the Need

the first week of official school has gone by and i feel as if i've been in school for at least 3 weeks! Ive had 2 PBLs-first on skin and repair, the other on blood pressure and stitching. quite interesting, but i realised that theres so much to learn from the books, so much self studying.. and one can over learn-knowing too much detail. tortora is good, ganong is crazy.. is there something in between???

yup, aniways, ive been hardworking, staying in the SL-Study Landscape (newly coined refined term for library) to prepare for PBLs. Ive been playing too, so yes, balance! -i wonder how long more can i keep up with this-

last night, ommenah (yr 3 singaporean medic), Rebecca (her ex roommate), ambika, maria sophia( greek gooddess) and i celebrated Hannah's birthday with her! we're all good friends and ommenah and hannah stay opposite me, really nice and happy people. after a horrific sing soc AGM (im now the events coordinator, at least not the pres.phew.), ambika, ommenah and i went to rebecca's place for some realy good carrot cake. (mummy's still the best though!)then we journeyed to Queen Margaret Union for "Cheesy Pop"

my first time clubbing. hah. wells.. it wasn a very pleasant experience, so i dont think i will be going again. this is a sensitive issue, so i shant say much. we've all got our own views and i cant impose mine on others, but anyways what went on for me was that i didnt drink -i cant, u see. danced a bit witht he girls-hey! it wasnt wild at all.. but i was bored dancing. not the type that i enjoy.. i really miss performance dance, ballet and hih hop. i guess i just cant find any meaning at all, lest, any fulfilment dancing and screaming away in a sea of sardines. quite a freaky sight-the images will always be planted deep in my brain as an abstinence reminder.

secondly, well, my neighbour Mr China boy A, was hitting on me, again. and he did it a very matter of fact-ly. he asked for a dance, asked me if i've got a "BF", bought me a drink (orange juice!), asked me if he could be my boyfriend. i replied, "NO" period. horrifying. i have a low tolerance for guys like that...

nightmare was over at 330m went i fell asleep . began at 8am this mornign when i had to wake up for freshers gathering. we went to a market, IKEA and Loch Lomond. small crow, but it was not too bad. quite fun. but i was too tired... but i like IKEA though, i love all the show cases and i cant wait for next year to come when i can build my own house!!!

alright. thats enough for now, long day tml at church and PBL to complete..
tired and bothered. i need to pray. I need God.

-how funny it is when i always say i need God, especially when im troubled. how much better it would be if i could realise i do need Him every second and in every part of my life. humans are stubborn creatures. at least i cud say that of myself.-