At Gibeon, the Lord appeared to Solomon during the night in a dream, and God said, "Ask for whatever you want me to give you."
Solomon answered, "You have shown great kindness to your servant, my father David, because he was faithful to you and righteous and upright in heart. You have continued this great kindness to him and have given him a son to sit on his throne this very day.
Now, O Lord my God, you have made your servant King in place of my father David. But I am only a little child and do not know how to carry out my duties... So give your servant a discerning heart to govern your people and to distinguish between right and wrong. For who is able to govern this great people of yours?"
The Lord was pleased that Sol0mon had asked for this. So God said to him, "Since you have asked for this and not for long life or wealth for yourself, not have asked for the death of your enemies but for discernment in administering justice, I will do what you have asked.
i will give you a wise and discerning heart, so that there will never have been anyone like you, nor will there ever be.
Moreoever, I will give you what you have not asked for- both riches and honour- so that in your lifetime you will have no equal among kings. And if you walk in my ways and obey my statutes and commands as David your father did, I will give you a long life."
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Prayers of faith can move the heavens
Ive been extremely tired since i came back. it doesn end, does it? haha.
After 2 hours of dance class yesterday, I am extremely fatigued.
i need sleep, and an early morn to revise OSCEs before endrool murders me for wasting his time. there's so much work to complete! oh no!
After 2 hours of dance class yesterday, I am extremely fatigued.
i need sleep, and an early morn to revise OSCEs before endrool murders me for wasting his time. there's so much work to complete! oh no!
-more random phot0s-
joel's back from brunei:) my happy extended family on sunday, grandma cooked:)
dad tried to put a hairband on for my 2nd "bro"- rocky! haha he looks awful in my pics cause of the flash, but he's such an adorable one. i want a puppy!
grandaunty and uncle are over from perth for a while. they might come over to glasgow this sept when they make their 2nd world tour. MAy.. :)
the wonderful food grandma cooks, again. home-made otah, deep fried tempura prawns, curry chicken and steamed fish! n some abalone soup thingy.. oh, i learnt how to cook chicken rice today! cooking is fun, if only i had more time, and more resources at glasgow:) nonetheless, ive got a nice kitchen and adequate ingredients, thank God:)
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Random photos before I left Glasgow
wednesday night, just before my SSM presentation, we had a cel group pot luck. eva and cat came over to make sushi. i looked so tired. it was an extremely stressful week. think i slept at 3am and woke at 6am to prepare. im glad its over!
i really like this creation
Jean's 22nd Birthday at "The Living Room"- so posh! my last night before i left for HOME:)
hope u liked the surprise:) May God be your rock, your refuge, and your strength.. always. Love.
Psalm 51
(1-2) Have mercy on me, O God,
according to your unfailing love;
according to your great compassion
blot out my transgressions.
Wash away all my inquity
and cleanse me from my sin
(10-12) Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
Do not cast me from your presence
or take your Holy Spirit from me.
Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and grant me a willing spirit,
to sustain me
(16-17) You do not delight in sacrifice, or
I would bring it;
You do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart,
O God, you will not despise.
Who am i to direct my life
to demand from my maker
who am i to judge my steps
and make right, what was wrong
who was i to call out to your name and demand answers
when it was me, who did wrong.
who let you down,
and those around me.
who am i to justify my transgressions or give excuses.
who am i?
still you, heard me when i was callin
you caught me when i was falling
and you told me who i am,
I am Yours.
So now, would you Lord direct my paths,
and make known to me what was previously unclear,
so no longer may i stumble
but grow to become more like You.
(1-2) Have mercy on me, O God,
according to your unfailing love;
according to your great compassion
blot out my transgressions.
Wash away all my inquity
and cleanse me from my sin
(10-12) Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
Do not cast me from your presence
or take your Holy Spirit from me.
Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and grant me a willing spirit,
to sustain me
(16-17) You do not delight in sacrifice, or
I would bring it;
You do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart,
O God, you will not despise.
Who am i to direct my life
to demand from my maker
who am i to judge my steps
and make right, what was wrong
who was i to call out to your name and demand answers
when it was me, who did wrong.
who let you down,
and those around me.
who am i to justify my transgressions or give excuses.
who am i?
still you, heard me when i was callin
you caught me when i was falling
and you told me who i am,
I am Yours.
So now, would you Lord direct my paths,
and make known to me what was previously unclear,
so no longer may i stumble
but grow to become more like You.
Monday, March 26, 2007
Stepping Out to Talk, a bit.
Today, was the start of a new week. A chance to start afresh.
Woke up early, hoping to take a morning RUN. Unfortunately, Mr weather man was not friendly. Got up quite sleepy, got ready to meet my BIL and then i received a text saying he was ill. post-phoned till tomorrow- get well soon!
anyway, i decided to go out. i really wanted a break from home.
took the mrt to city hall, walked around Raffles city for about 1.5 hours? spent my esprit $100 voucher:), visited the opticians, caught up on what ive been missing out in the past 6 months.. then settled down in MOS to study. man, i felt like i was in JC.
ice milk tea- the only one i will ever drink, that is from MOS.
sat at one corner, single seater:) and took out PBL 8.5 ready to mug. brain injury.. cool stuff.
it was a fruitful session. focus as best as i could.
ocassionally would get distracted by people talking really loudly.
teenagers... and their love lives... seriously, kids, it's not a game.
and then, these older girls, uni prob, talking about their pre-marital sex lives. just beside me. grr
i wonder how it can be taken this lightly.
some girl commented that she doesnt believe in men, and wow, she really seemed so... tough. i was envious of that ability, but only for a moment...
can you love someone without believing in him?
anwyay, whatever, i think studying outside works for me. but i need to rmb a sweater.
oh, i shall post pictures of my baptism real soon. there are 80 of them, so i sugggest you go to facebook and view the entire album:) but my current thoughts?
I married the bestest man ever
and though he cant be with me right now, (which makes life sucks a bit)
ill look forward to the day we will be reunited again.
i just want to know, every single second and minute of my life, that He loves me so much, so deep, above anyone else.
oh, and i learnt something over the past week, too, that He, My jesus, loves those whom i love a lot, MUCH MORE than I ever will. who am i, i am but a human being..
I know, they are in safe hands, and they can be truly happy, and thats what matters most right?
Woke up early, hoping to take a morning RUN. Unfortunately, Mr weather man was not friendly. Got up quite sleepy, got ready to meet my BIL and then i received a text saying he was ill. post-phoned till tomorrow- get well soon!
anyway, i decided to go out. i really wanted a break from home.
took the mrt to city hall, walked around Raffles city for about 1.5 hours? spent my esprit $100 voucher:), visited the opticians, caught up on what ive been missing out in the past 6 months.. then settled down in MOS to study. man, i felt like i was in JC.
ice milk tea- the only one i will ever drink, that is from MOS.
sat at one corner, single seater:) and took out PBL 8.5 ready to mug. brain injury.. cool stuff.
it was a fruitful session. focus as best as i could.
ocassionally would get distracted by people talking really loudly.
teenagers... and their love lives... seriously, kids, it's not a game.
and then, these older girls, uni prob, talking about their pre-marital sex lives. just beside me. grr
i wonder how it can be taken this lightly.
some girl commented that she doesnt believe in men, and wow, she really seemed so... tough. i was envious of that ability, but only for a moment...
can you love someone without believing in him?
anwyay, whatever, i think studying outside works for me. but i need to rmb a sweater.
oh, i shall post pictures of my baptism real soon. there are 80 of them, so i sugggest you go to facebook and view the entire album:) but my current thoughts?
I married the bestest man ever
and though he cant be with me right now, (which makes life sucks a bit)
ill look forward to the day we will be reunited again.
i just want to know, every single second and minute of my life, that He loves me so much, so deep, above anyone else.
oh, and i learnt something over the past week, too, that He, My jesus, loves those whom i love a lot, MUCH MORE than I ever will. who am i, i am but a human being..
I know, they are in safe hands, and they can be truly happy, and thats what matters most right?
randomness..
bhavani- ams little niece in luton, london! aint she sweet and adorable. i want her too! can couples please start having more kids, id babysit!
this is her pink doll house.. so sweet.. haha ams and i want 1 too. see- every girl has a fantasy of being a princess, just like in a fairy tale.
wedding dinner i attended with grandma the first monday i was back. argh. not the best place to be this time, haha. but anyway, decided to dress up for the fun of it. in my living room! after i came home, mei mei and i started some crazy photo whoring. i tried, to fly. tried. this is the 5th shot, and she got me in mid air! not bad eh- reminds me of one episode in ANTM. haha.
Sunday, March 25, 2007
"Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.
Commit your way to the Lord;
trust in Him and He will do this:
He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn,
the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.
Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for Him,
do not fret when men succeed in their ways,
when they carry out their wicked schemes."
-Psalm 37:4-7
Believe, and it shall be done...
Commit your way to the Lord;
trust in Him and He will do this:
He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn,
the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.
Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for Him,
do not fret when men succeed in their ways,
when they carry out their wicked schemes."
-Psalm 37:4-7
Believe, and it shall be done...
Saturday, March 24, 2007
I dont really know what to say, or feel, so i decided to pick something fun and cheerful. I typed "rainbow" in google images and this was what i found! so cute:) I dont know how it relates to me exactly, but i think its happy:) And i hope all my loved ones are as well.No more tears, nor bringing people down with my sadness, nor sulky faces or pouting! (though when i pout im usually laughin), SMILE.
Friday, March 23, 2007
Monday, March 19, 2007
My Person
when we are happy
when we have nothing better to do
when work gets tougher and tougher
when someone insults us
when we are PMS-ing
when no one bothers enough to try understand
when we are miles apart
when the world seems to have grown too cold and unfamiliar...
Thank You Lord Jesus, for girl friends. For Ambika.
May you guide her unto your way, everlasting.
Sunday, March 18, 2007
sarosea
im home
i found a forever friends bear lying on my shelf.
http://www.--------.blogspot.com
i realised that the most earnest prayers made for me, was from a pre-believer...
those, really touched me, and made a beautiful difference in my life.
i frequently remember and thank God for you.
No one knows the future, we have hopes and desires, but no one knows. not yet.
Prayers, cries and pleas made in faith, may not be answered immediately..
Israel - 40 years in the desert
Moses- 40 days before he saw God
sarah- ??????
no one on earth knows, its true... so much speculation, so many diff testimonies from people who have been through, so many diff life stories. still, no one knows.
So, focus on the present, things that are more important and urgent at the moment..
with patience, prayer and peserverence, we shall see the Lord's glory, someday. blowing us off our feet. whether i get what i want or not, i shall be blown off my feet.
Lord, take me to an oasis...
i found a forever friends bear lying on my shelf.
http://www.--------.blogspot.com
i realised that the most earnest prayers made for me, was from a pre-believer...
those, really touched me, and made a beautiful difference in my life.
i frequently remember and thank God for you.
No one knows the future, we have hopes and desires, but no one knows. not yet.
Prayers, cries and pleas made in faith, may not be answered immediately..
Israel - 40 years in the desert
Moses- 40 days before he saw God
sarah- ??????
no one on earth knows, its true... so much speculation, so many diff testimonies from people who have been through, so many diff life stories. still, no one knows.
So, focus on the present, things that are more important and urgent at the moment..
with patience, prayer and peserverence, we shall see the Lord's glory, someday. blowing us off our feet. whether i get what i want or not, i shall be blown off my feet.
Lord, take me to an oasis...
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
The 3am nightmare
2 Corinthians 4:16-18
16Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. 17For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. 18So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
This verse was placed on someone's heart since last week, specially for me.
Its been really difficult, thats all I can say.
Im still trying to constantly fix my eyes on what is unseen. Faith, Hope...
L___ ?
16Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. 17For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. 18So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
This verse was placed on someone's heart since last week, specially for me.
Its been really difficult, thats all I can say.
Im still trying to constantly fix my eyes on what is unseen. Faith, Hope...
L___ ?
Monday, March 12, 2007
Last friday, ambika came over and we had a girls night in. heh. we ordered chips and curry, chips and cheese and spicy chicken and veg and chicken tikka pakora! from 7 spices:) i know, its super unhealthy! haha, but i havent complained of being fat in ages, haha maybe cause there's no one to whine to. hmm anyway! we had a good night, tried to study, took crazy photos.. yup.
Jean has joined our league and im happie:) -hugz-
May the Lord conitnue to guide her and bless her so richly as she seeks Him.
" And you will find me when you seek me wth all your heart"- Jeremiah 29:12
The Highest Praise!
1.20am- sarah finished her essay:)
after critically appraising 6 journals at least and ramaging through many specialist texts. wee! The 2 names Sevoflurane and Propofol are gonna be constantly in my mind.
there's one more powerpoint presentation to go.. dear me.. public speaking!
Its been a good SSM. I quite like anaesthesiology:)
Today's sermon received good feedback from many people. I agree it was good and important for US young people and older, to understand. But it was nothing new to me, i guess.. cause ive been reminded by many many people before this. and i kinda knew where i was heading already.. But im thankful for the reinforcement of the idea that our FIRST and ULTiMATE love should be our dear GOD, when we are single, attached or married. its true that intimacy between a man and a woman can be such a beautiful thing... i think we know that. But outside the context of marriage, where "love" is flaunted about too easily.. and where relationships are so fragile.. intimacy isnt really at its best. too much risk of hurt and disappointments..
I guess, theres always a right time for everything, a right place too.
and when it happens, it shall be the best. so be hopeful,
and wait. I shall wait. cause i know its gonna be worth the price. no matter how painful and difficult, and even if the worse case scenario (MAB!) happens..i still shall perservere and wait....
all these tears that we cry, God collects them in a jar, and someday He shall pour it all out, as blessings..
I know.
"We'll sing an anthem of the highest Praise..."
after critically appraising 6 journals at least and ramaging through many specialist texts. wee! The 2 names Sevoflurane and Propofol are gonna be constantly in my mind.
there's one more powerpoint presentation to go.. dear me.. public speaking!
Its been a good SSM. I quite like anaesthesiology:)
Today's sermon received good feedback from many people. I agree it was good and important for US young people and older, to understand. But it was nothing new to me, i guess.. cause ive been reminded by many many people before this. and i kinda knew where i was heading already.. But im thankful for the reinforcement of the idea that our FIRST and ULTiMATE love should be our dear GOD, when we are single, attached or married. its true that intimacy between a man and a woman can be such a beautiful thing... i think we know that. But outside the context of marriage, where "love" is flaunted about too easily.. and where relationships are so fragile.. intimacy isnt really at its best. too much risk of hurt and disappointments..
I guess, theres always a right time for everything, a right place too.
and when it happens, it shall be the best. so be hopeful,
and wait. I shall wait. cause i know its gonna be worth the price. no matter how painful and difficult, and even if the worse case scenario (MAB!) happens..i still shall perservere and wait....
all these tears that we cry, God collects them in a jar, and someday He shall pour it all out, as blessings..
I know.
"We'll sing an anthem of the highest Praise..."
Sunday, March 11, 2007
The woman called R
Totally knackered...
just came back from the cha chas' place.
230am!
nothing much, just had 2 quotes which i thought were well said.
Love is...
"when shit happens, you dont jump ship.."
"A conscious decision to love"
"Accepting the others flaws no matter how many or ugly and knowing the converse is true."
The cha chas' home just made me fall in love with cuddly soft toys and everything colourful, all over again! it sounds really kiddish, but i think it brings out the sunshine in me:) Its good to be happy when you really are, and not pretend to be when you're not. or worse, run away from reality. but when you're happy, BE happy to the fullest and let your light shine!
Thank you Jesus for assuring me that Your hands are the best place anyone can be, thank you for loving me wholeheartedly and faithfully:)
Abba father, do not forget my little prayers and wishes still, because they are still precious to me.. take them and make good things happen Lord..in your time..
just came back from the cha chas' place.
230am!
nothing much, just had 2 quotes which i thought were well said.
Love is...
"when shit happens, you dont jump ship.."
"A conscious decision to love"
"Accepting the others flaws no matter how many or ugly and knowing the converse is true."
The cha chas' home just made me fall in love with cuddly soft toys and everything colourful, all over again! it sounds really kiddish, but i think it brings out the sunshine in me:) Its good to be happy when you really are, and not pretend to be when you're not. or worse, run away from reality. but when you're happy, BE happy to the fullest and let your light shine!
Thank you Jesus for assuring me that Your hands are the best place anyone can be, thank you for loving me wholeheartedly and faithfully:)
Abba father, do not forget my little prayers and wishes still, because they are still precious to me.. take them and make good things happen Lord..in your time..
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Cortisol
SSM essay on General Anaesthesia needs a lot of narrowing down, and a lot more work, plus, there's a big presentation to do by next wednesday.
training 830-1230 every morning-stabbing people and sucking their blood. when i would actually like to sleep in, no its a need since
The cold has gotten me. again. again.
worse, My friend, L, is back to haunt me.
not to forget, a whole lot of debris from...
of course my cortisol levels are on the rise...
remedy: a solid quiet time, just me and Him.
"In surrender I must give my every part, Lord receive the sacrifice of a broken heart"
training 830-1230 every morning-stabbing people and sucking their blood. when i would actually like to sleep in, no its a need since
The cold has gotten me. again. again.
worse, My friend, L, is back to haunt me.
not to forget, a whole lot of debris from...
of course my cortisol levels are on the rise...
remedy: a solid quiet time, just me and Him.
"In surrender I must give my every part, Lord receive the sacrifice of a broken heart"
Sunday, March 04, 2007
The Cry
Cry in My Heart- Starfield
There's a cry in my heart
For Your glory to fall
For Your presence to fill up my senses
There's a yearning again
A thirst for discipline
A hunger for things that are deeper
Could You take me beyond?
Could You carry me through?
If I open my heart?Could I go there with You?
For I've been here before
But I know there's still more
Oh, Lord, I need to know You
For what do I have If I don't have You, Jesus?
What in this life Could mean any more?
You are my rock
You are my glory
You are the lifter Of my head
Lifter of this head
Saturday, March 03, 2007
The Sacrifice
and the lift door closed, again.
so what is it that tramples this time? oh, a whole lot that words arent enough.
I hope, that the white rose, stays in full bloom. that its leaves shall be ever green, and its petals white as snow. even in the scorching heat and the drought, it shall stand and never wither. Purity always...
On a lighter note, listen to this:
"That girl" - introduced to me by the 2nd L! i really love that song, and that voice.
makes me regain interest in men who can write songs, sing and play the guitar or piano. hah!
My parents spoke with me today, it was one of the best conversations we had in years. mummy seemed to have so much to say, and awwww she was so supportive and affirmative. im really thankful for the prayers that they have made for us over the past 6 weeks. Thank you Lord Jesus for the blessings you've poured out onto our family over the past 3 years. You've showed us how much you love us, and how much you want all of us to come to have a deep relationship with you. thank you for reconciliation and ties that have been strengthened. thank you for the many miracles you've given us, when we thought it was a dead end- indeed you have the powers to do what man thinks is impossible. indeed, you have plans greater than we can ever perceive.
do continue to bind us together as one in your spirit, as some of us journey to different parts of the world. Keep them safe and close to you.
Thank you mummy and daddy for the endless faith you have in me, and the continuous prayers you make for those I care for. Thank you for your understanding and love for us. Your faith in the Lord has given me the strength to continue to hope in Him.
Today, I KNOW that the glory of the Lord WILL be revealed in time to come.
some random photos i found in "my received files"- cambodia mission trip last summer
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