The New Chapter

The turning point came on Sunday.
IT had been boiling up, accumulated fears, dissatisfaction, disappointment and lost for several months now.
i never thought rise up above the aftermath of that hard-hit chapter.
But i was wrong, nothing is too difficult for God to achieve, and it is done when you believe and call out to His great and mighty name, it is done, when we proclaim in the name of jesus Christ, according to His will.
now, the responsibility lies on us, to let go of that yolk and lay it at the foot of the cross.
Jesus is always calling out to us, i believe.

as in ailing's blog she wrote:
But the spirit within us cries out, (ailing), THERE IS A GOD, I AM HERE, I LIVE WITHIN YOU.
My father cries out for me,in the midst of my flesh being weak.
My Father is a father of relationships, he cries out for me.
We need so much in our time and age to be reminded that GOD IS HERE,VERY MUCH ALIVE, VERY MUCH SOVEREIGN, VERY BIG, VERY MIGHTY, VERY ABLE...
That gave daniel the strength to stand strong and stand firm.It's not something He felt, it was something He knew and fought hard to remember.

ive learnt over this year especially, that we faith is not a feeling, and our relationship with God should never be measured against human feelings. because feelings are FAR TOO fragile. they are here today and gone tomorrow. how can a relationship with an utmost majestic and divine God be built on such a shaky foundation? it will definately crumble over time, through hardship and the vices of this world.
I would like to see my rela, with jesus as a 2 way commitment and promise, one that was made the very moment i accepted Christ as my personal Lord and saviour. He promised to be always be there for me, WITH me. and i believe i have also committed myself to always love and serve, in times of blessings and in seasons of suffering. it is difficult to walk, often, because that is the nature of the flesh-"There is NO God!" syndrome, So all the more we Need to fight hard to remember we have the spirit in us, and the spirit cries out for usand to us "The living God is IN You."

yes, i agree with daddy g, in a recent email, that it IS time to begin a new chapter in my life,and close the previous. and someday perhaps when someone needs encouragement, I would like to open up this hard-hit chapter and share from it.
I think I still might have to face up to certain realities of the consequences, but I fear No more. because I know God is with me. There are many things i can do better e.g. the way i handle friendships and er.. money. its gonna be a hard fight, but im determined to do well.
It never was about me, my pain, the event itself, my fall, the lesson learnt. It was about Him. All about Him. His plans, His will, His glory.
bearing this in mind, I enter this new chapter with more confidence.

God works in amazing ways, and I think Im really blessed to be able to experience this throughout my research.
"The impact of blindness and other smoking-related diseases in motivating smokers to quit smoking and non-smokers from starting smoking."

saturday at bedok cc, i interviewed a malay man who is a chronic smoker.
a couple of min after the survey was done, he waved to me and said:
"I want to quit smoking la.. Ive tried but failed, can you tell me how i can go about doing this?"

im glad to be able to help someone improve their health in even the smallest ways possible.

2nd incident, last night at siglap linear park, concerning a beautiful young lady in her twenties who also is a chronic smoker.
sarah:"mdm, i need you to sign this consent form....."
lady: (signs form and smiles to herself)
lady: (as she signed..) "are you a christian?"
sarah:(taken aback) yeah, i am. how did you know? thats scary....
lady: (laughs to herself and pauses) "God is telling me something today..."
boyfriend in the background: "to quit smoking."

when God uses little things in me for His purposes and glory...
its beyond words.
this broken clay jar is grateful.