sweet home alabama

time flies. i'll be going home in 8 days time! i cant believe it, its so fast, so near... ive got some confessions to make.

1)im really afraid of being home
2)im growing fat!
3)i went to ****** -tell u when im home
4)tell u when im home, even more. *winks*

been thinking a bit about life back in singapore.
Im apprehensive about seeing everyone again, don't get me wrong. I miss my family and my friends.. just that, perhaps we have not been communicating that frequently, and as best as we could have. It's gonna be so weird interacting with them again.. oh no...

ive been through so many changes in Glasgow, so different from the lifestyle in Singapore,and its quite impossible to resolve the 2. being brutally honest, im a different person now.its kinda like i can never be the same as i was, and i hope i would not have to face the expectation of being the same.neither do i want to have changed for the worse.

daddy has been telling me how excited everyone is, how they are looking forward to saturday. all the plans they have for the rest of december.. and im actually stressed out by it! because they are so excited and so enthusaiastic but i dont think im as excited as them. I'm afraid i will be impatient with them, im afraid ill just be a horrible big brat. and people will think im a snob. But im not... i dun have those intentions.

its just been so long.. and so much has happened. I, being so silly, dunno how to interact with them. aye. this is one of my weakness. unrefined communication skills with people i love dearly. really.

im thinking about church, home... how i may react to certain people and situations.. im praying, and will pray harder, that i will be able to approach people with genuity and sincerity, not just say "hi, how are u?how have u been..." for the sake of saying it. But really meaning it from the bottom of my heart. really wanting to love and actually loving my friends. i want to give, as much as i have received something good from the Lord.

okay. end of my confessions part 1. going shopping this weekend for people back home. orders anyone?