Im Home

a singapore flag carrying helicopter flew by- NDP rehearsal i guess. its tt time of the yr.

my first meal in singapore! we went to Lagoon for singapore food! had loads of stuff:)

my favourite BBQ stingray!!!

mei: looks like some hawker aunty haha!

my brother- the real one. havent seen him in 9 months! say cheez to mutton satay!

delayed photos from ten thousand minutes ago!

marian came over from france- amb's sec sch friend. like one week before the exams. one night, i brought over Ben and Jerry's "Chocolate therapy" and some cajun oven-baked fries for them!
some sort of therapy it seems...
but i dont really like this flavour, dont like the pudding :( i love "Oh My Apple Pie!" its the best. miss those days having it with cheesecake and whatever....

FREAK

we went for dinner at a belgium bar/pub place at Ashton Lane. i hate mussels, which i only managed to finish 1/3. too huge! Mussel Inn has better!
Marian and Ommenah

june 5th- we went over to the girls' for OSCE practice. they cooked us curry and prata! thank you! yao was there too. monkey!
i had no idea the 2 girls were bimbotic.
NORA NORA!
they went to alton towers and the girls came back with char siew soh (my fav dim sum!!!) for us! thank u phuiyee for driving over..:)

exam food= instant noodles (koka is quite nice)

new creation: pasta with avocado and beef, peppers and red pesto!
2 weeks before the exams- the stuff tt keeps me going on the 5th floor of the SL
met up with nora sometime to chit chat and pray- the secrets of sisterhood:)

my lifeline

veggie delite!- tts unfortunately my fav subway sandwich. haha.
monstrous!!!!- reminds me of tortoro!
The brothers cooked! more specifically CJ and Teng! so touched by them, always nagging at me to eat, and sleep, and bringing me food! thank you bros!
ah neh!
act cool only

Major transformation Needed

"God did not send Jesus to this earth to die so that women could get over their self-esteem problem and feel better about themselves. No, He sent his Son to die to rescue us from our sinful, futile quest for physical beauty and to reveal to us the satisfaction that comes from knowing God—whether we are beautiful or not!

What freedom and hope is found in Christ! We don’t need to feel beautiful about ourselves to find happiness! In fact, we’re better off not even thinking about ourselves. Rather, God has offered us in Jesus Christ forgiveness, hope, freedom from sin and a joy that never ends. "

taken from http://girltalk.blogs.com >> this is NO typical gossipy girl talk "women-rule-we hate guys" blog, its about service and humility. GO find out for yourself!

*whoah super power*
but super harsh reality as well.
the "high life" ( i mean holy, not wordly) is like HIGH UP THERE and IM DOWN HERE.

BUT then again, there is no other better way is there? its really NO turning back.
NOt that its TT bad, but it really requires cleansing out almost everything im so used to?
I dont wanna scare myself or you, its NOT bad. in fact im very convinced it is the BEST route for any of us to take, it brings the most joy and satisfaction. It really is what truly matters in life.
keep moving, keep reflecting and listening to what Father has to teach us.. with His big big Grace, im sure we will get there together someday no matter how tough it may be

老鼠爱大米

Totoro Totoro ~ "my Neighbour totoro" by Hayao Miyazaki :)
I remember watchin this in RGS they played it during some assembly, it was so shweeet :)
My favourite part is when Totoro opens his mouth wide and plays with mei..
Mei is so cute! she walks into bushes haha
Im going to watch "spirited away" after im done with the OSCEs yipee!

You Go Girl(s)

The Lord has brought me growth in knowing , something i cannot regret, though there have been tmes i wished i never met . I have to give to the Lord regularly. I Live "present tense" more than ever before and have managed to overcome the plaguing desire to know if...

Ive told the Lord I want to be an obedient servant, and He shot back, "Are you willing to face grief and pain or whatever it takes for Me to make you that?" Even though I felt unable, I said, "What choice do I have? I know too much to drop the ball now. There's no turning back." Id be lying if I said I wasnt afraid. But He has brought me this far and already my joy is unspeakable.

- "Passion & Purity", Elisabeth Elliot

Im reaching for the highest goal, the highest calling, to be pure, holy, and righteous.
And i am afraid of the tougher days ahead. those days and months of breaking down the stubborn and ugly ways, those tears waiting to be shed, that heart waiting to be broken.
But hope keeps me moving and living..
Like silver that has to be passed through the hottest of flames to be refined, till He is pleased with His reflection in me.

Lesson 1:
"Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight."
1 Peter 3:3-4

-I miss you-

Father,
please watch over mum and dad as they journey to Beijing. Grant them journey mercy, good health and safety throughout the trip. Also, please watch over the young and old at home and keep them well. Thank You :)
In Jesus's name,
Amen

美人魚 快 乐

amidst the inner confusion and the tears over the months, I realised, I grew up...

1:15 AM

Lee: what I do to my children or any other people is out of christian love, more so for my own children
me: okay i understand im not angry... im not saying you all are wrong
Lee: My stress comes from my planning for my 3 children, taking care of my parents and wife and from my work too. Hope you appreciate
me: im just very stressed also, have to consider about helping u all save money, decent place, good environement i appreciate but i hope you all also understand tt im not having fun here, im also thinking of ways to do good to everyone... and repay you all...and its not easy. nobody;s life is easy
Lee: so we are even and same in the same boat
me: ill pray about it and see where God leads la. go do your work and dont worrie... God is with me ill only come out of all these more like Him
Lee: ok bye bye and take care sweety
me: I love you dad just remember that
Lee: ok
me: -hugz-
Lee: hug you too
me: hee send mummy a hug from me tonight byebye!

An accomodation issue, turned into a concern, into worry. A parent's love misintepreted as tryin to exert control. Inappropriate communication over time, led to a lack of understanding of both parties..till it exploded one evening.. :(

But, times have changed... that poignant little girl has learnt humility and compromise, and above all respect. It pierced my heart as i said all i said to my father...

over the months, Ive finally come to realise the deep love of parents for their child. I cant empathsie fully cause im not one myself. But suddenly, my views have changed. its as if the roles have changed.. No longer do i want to be that little daddy's girl who just asks and expects to receive whatever.

I dont want to cast my burdens on them, I dont want them to react according to MY life and my circumstances.. But i want to be strong and tough. I want my parents to lean on me for support. I want to be someone who encourages them in their walk with God, to help them see the beauty among the thorns in life... I want to take care of them and worry about them - make sure they are safe and well and happy above all.

Its pretty weird isnt it? esp when they are still funding my education and providing for some of my physical needs ")

G is right.. no one can and should ever turn against the hand that raised them up.. that love and care.. is so deep.

"We love because God first loved us"

In the last 1 month, I held on to God so tightly, more than ive ever had. And i know, i can write all these today because He has enabled me to. he has put His joy in my heart and it is better than being anywhere else in this world.

He is my hope for tomorrow and my strength. He is my maker, my deliverer, my fortress and my rock. In whom, I will never be shaken.

Through the storms that are hailing, I will ride the waves with Him, and let Him teach me His ways.

I will graciously accept His sovereign will for me and for those i care for, and I will graciously smile and make peace. for this is the love that Christ has called us to. No more grudges, no more being silly and sad- why should there be sadness?

Christ has risen and will come again to restore this world... Love is beautiful... God is all around this place, not only with me, but those who know Him. I know they are beautiful too...

What is lost, will be found!

though the sun shines today, but i know storms will always be near...

Yet what matters is that it still shines, and will ultimately be 7 times brighter..

That day,

"He will make her deserts like Eden,

her wastelands like the garden of the Lord

Joy and gladness will be found in her,

thanksgiving and the sound of singing."- Isaiah 51:3

*great big smile* as i continue to reflect on the lessons He wants me to learn, and commit to memory!

<<听妈妈的话 别让她受伤 想快快长大 才能保护她>>- Jay Chou

http://youtube.com/watch?v=4cGWEPbYUtg

- Belated Mother's day pressie for you mum!

some 2 weeks ago, space monkeys had an outing- our first! but in the end, more brothers joined us for a wonderful picnic and frisbee at the Botanics. Guess who are the 4 other monkeys?!?
thank God for the great weather, food and brothers.

You are Ariel. You are beautiful but impaired. At times you are naïve. Still, your innocence and good heart make you sought after and loved.

关怀方式

寂寞開在心事旁
隨手種一些傷感
不讓星星來窺探
找個沉默的夜晚

找個沉默的夜晚
不讓星星來窺探
隨手種一些傷感
寂寞開在心事旁

我的關懷方式是你無法察覺的悲涼
只能在你不經意時才鎖上我心房
你往常的親切友善
是我今生的遺憾
受傷後無悔的埋在不流露的臉上

"I am a mistake"

there are many things which i want to say, things, which are true.
but i know they are probably going to influence people in a less positive way, so its probably best left unspoken. 4 months and counting, thats how i lead my life... a melody unspoken.
This.... is

"its okay. just pray"- thats my chorus, over and over till im dried up inside.

Talking to myself

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, and He will make your paths straight"- Proverbs 3:5-6

the inner woman is fighting every single minute, it is tough, but i know at the pivotal moment, she will still be strong and peservere. because the Lord is good, Because He lives in her. Because She has, like many others, His ressurection power.

Keep remembering, meditate on it day and night till it gets deeply engrained in your heart, girl...

i want to be joyful every single second of the day, i really do

"joy, is not the absence of pain, but having the Presence of God."

father, life is never easy, and sometimes, we lose sight of the things that matter most. many a times, we replace you with things we can see on earth. Help us then, with your grace.. to re-focus our goals and passions on You.
mAy our lives, and our entire being truly centre around You.
For those you love who are sitting for exams, please guide them and provide them with the capacity to do well. By your grace, it shall be done....

tHANK YoU LoRd, iN aDvANCe :)